Verbose

I am here again. Yes. Me being selfish and giving myself time to do what I wish.  So, I am writing down more of my daily thoughts that are rolling on and on.  I will start to sounds verbose throughout this I am sure. 
I am not one to hold onto things of material.  Well, if you include my closet and delicious taste for shoes I would say I just lied in that first statement.  But, when it comes to "stuff" I am the first to say give it away.  Purging feels so freeing to me.  Clutter in reality causes my brain to swell.  I am not exaggerating.  I honestly feel sorry for the people who have problems with hording.  That is like a nightmare to me.  Can you imagine feeling so bogged down and tied to belongings? 
I only cleaned out my bookcase, but it was so cleansing.  I have a whole 2 shelves that are empty. Clean.  Free.  I love it. 
The most amazing part of cleaning it all out today was realizing how much information I have read and studied over the past 10 years.  Books that have impressed my mind, taught me fundamentals, made me laugh, cry and ones that have helped keep me sane as I raise my children. 
Its crazy how much one can learn and store.  I was like KUDOS for me.....  Then it became clearer still that I have forgotten as much as I have learned.  I opened up some of my favorite text only to be utterly impressed again with the beautiful words that I once have read before.  The reminder that we are forever learning, forever needing to be reminded and I have let myself drift too far.  I have become just another life on this planet.  I forgot that I need guidance.  I need inspiration.  I need to be open to listen and learn.  To hear life.

So the last few days have been full of questions.  Love, Science vs. Reality.  Presnece. The real heart of what makes me me.  I love science, hence my degree in Health Science.  I am the absolute cliche' because I am convinced we are what we eat. To the core. I am believe there is a huge link between our emotions and our health.  So thank you Grandma for giving me the heads up on this.  The most amazing woman I know, Virginia Pickering, gave me several books growing up.  One that I picked up today and looked at the cover and thought, "this book is so old that it might be time to let go".  I opened it one last time before throwing it in that pile and was amazed at the words that starred at me on the page. I quote, " Romance is a passionate commitment to the happiness that life can offer".  Dr. Branden goes on to explain, "Many people live automatically.  Life loses its freshness.  Enthusiasm dies.  Passion dies.  I am not referring to only romantic love."  He goes on, "To be romantic is to see your life in beautiful, expanded terms".
Expanded terms.  Wow.  Breathtaking.  Like looking through a childs eye I suppose.  Brilliant colors and wonderment of everything you see.  I want to live vivid like this everyday.  I want to have the passion that drives my life.
The book is now on my nightstand where I plan on revisiting the chapters and tasting the words on my lips as I read them.  You know the saying, "Don't judge a book by its cover".  I leave tonight on that.

I leave tonight on being romantic.
Being alive.